What Goes Up, Must Come Down

Approaching August has brought a whole lot of learning and understanding. While many of you who follow my blog know, I spent much of the beginning of 2011 riding a super high while preparing for the 2o11 Academy Awards. (see previous posts for more info if you need) The high was extreme and it was a wild and wonderful ride which has allowed me to receive invitations to the 2011 Emmy Awards, 2012 Grammy Awards, 2011 Billboard Awards & the 2012 Oscars. All of these invites have been received with a humble heart and with a cautious mind now that I have learned first hand that what goes up comes down equally far. At this point I should mention that blogspot's format is not allowing me to leave space between paragraphs. If you have any insight please let me know as it is more annoying to me than it is to you! Sorry. January, February & March were as I mentioned, wildly wonderfully but also wickedly wearing. I worked fast and hard for 3 months outside my comfort zone. I am not complaining I am just saying it was fast and furious and I have huge respect for what it has done for my business and myself; however, it also made for a few months of personal growth that was not for seen. March came and I was tired and overwhelmed. It took me through April, May, and June to recover from the highs and I even found myself in some shadowy lows. It was hard for me to recognize and make the connection between the hype of my business and the emotional exhaustion I was feeling but with the help of my Silver Fox and some peeps 'in the know', I was able to piece it all together and learn a whole lot about myself. Looking in the mirror and the rear view mirror can give someone a great deal of confidence and a whole pile of self realization. I have begun to realize that my life is much more enjoyable when I place boundaries on myself and others. I have said it before and it holds as true as ever that I am best when I only try two cross two things of my to-do list in a day. I am no super woman or 'supah mama' nor do I desire to rise to societies demands that achieve accolades. I am a one woman show with human abilities. I am beginning to find out what I am made of and it is solid, earthy wares that have allowed me to arrive at this place of absolution. I absolutely am not one who likes to feel the pressure of other people's expectations. Rule number one and the newest and most prized realization... I am not responsible for anyone else accept those whom I brought into the world. For them I gladly take ownership. All others must make themselves happy. Wow, sounds simple but certainly took me awhile to grasp this concept. Love & Light, t.